black-dahlia

was horrible. football game:

one of my best friends are moving, and even though its only two hours away and she’s visiting back a lot, it’s still so terrible. we all cried so hard.

so there’s two guys;

guy one i practically love. he’s so perfect but he loves someone else. he knows i like him, i told him becuase i have the guts. but he can’t stop loving her, therefore i can’t stop loving him.

guy two loves me. i’m not just saying this, everyone tells me. he’s sweet and all,  but i feel no attraction towards him and i can’t date someone i don’t like; pity is worse than rejection.

so while i was crying with my friends guy two comes up to me and hugs me. “it’s gonna bbe alright”. how sweet is that? i know i’m terrible for not liking him but i can’t force myself.

the whole time guy one was all over the girl he likes. it hurts to see him walk away from me to be next to her. whatever. long story, can’t explain it all.

in your shadow.. that song saves me. it’s perfect: saying that i’ll never be with guy one, i’ll always be in his shadow. i love it. <3

well, i wrote another poem about it today. almost all my poems are about him right now. :| whatever. it’s barely a poem, just words. whatever.

http://broken—-wings.deviantart.com/art/Eclipse-139756432