tonight
was horrible. football game:
one of my best friends are moving, and even though its only two hours away and she’s visiting back a lot, it’s still so terrible. we all cried so hard.
so there’s two guys;
guy one i practically love. he’s so perfect but he loves someone else. he knows i like him, i told him becuase i have the guts. but he can’t stop loving her, therefore i can’t stop loving him.
guy two loves me. i’m not just saying this, everyone tells me. he’s sweet and all, but i feel no attraction towards him and i can’t date someone i don’t like; pity is worse than rejection.
so while i was crying with my friends guy two comes up to me and hugs me. “it’s gonna bbe alright”. how sweet is that? i know i’m terrible for not liking him but i can’t force myself.
the whole time guy one was all over the girl he likes. it hurts to see him walk away from me to be next to her. whatever. long story, can’t explain it all.
in your shadow.. that song saves me. it’s perfect: saying that i’ll never be with guy one, i’ll always be in his shadow. i love it. <3
well, i wrote another poem about it today. almost all my poems are about him right now. :| whatever. it’s barely a poem, just words. whatever.
please realize it hurts,
please realize you made a mistake.
please make the pain go away,
please come back to me.
please forget the world,
please don’t forget me.
please love me,
please hold me,
please don’t let me fall.
please think of me,
and realize what you’ve done.
please think twice,
and please turn my life around.
please rethink it all,
and we can be a miracle together.
– by me.guy friends are the best. i got two amazing ones and they help me with guys, i help them with girls. ;)
wait
a hug; it means so little to him but so much to me.
he doesn’t realize how it hurts.
he knows i love him.
but he’s too wrapped up in her.
but i can wait..
humanoid. <3
i got the hot topic version yesterday. :) waiting for my deluxe+german songs to come in the mail still.
the album is fucking amazing. <3 i cried so much yesterday listening to it. it’s just so beautiful. i can’t wait to hear phantomrider and alien, though. i’ve heard previews.
i can’t choose a favorite song, but my top 3 are in your shadow, zoom into me, and world behind my wall. don’t get me wrong, i love all the other songs a lot, too. i just love the slow songs most. :) i look for songs with a strong meaning.
in your shadow makes me cry the second i hit play. i was hysterically crying last ngiht for like 20 minutes listening to it. it’s just so beautifully worded and everything. and i can truly relate to it. i love bill for writing it.. <3
i love the cd. :) it’s out at perfect timing, to help me cope with how sucky life is.. :|
in your shadow i can shine. you’ve seen my soul, i’m a nightmare.
–in your shadow - tokio hotel.
aka the most fucking amazingly beautiful song in the universe.
About me
i'm the girl who could sit in bed all day and daydream.helloo i'm rachael. :)
i love meeting new people.
in my spare time i love to read, write, and play guitar.
music is my life.
tokio hotel is 100% my favorite band. and i'm not just some fangirl. i like them for real reasons and i love their german songs more than english. :)
i don't like to be like everyone else.
i get inspired by rain and storms. oh, and wings. <3
lyrics intrigue me. :) i love words.
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